Relevance: are you ever too old?

In some ways, I never thought I would be here. In some ways, I wish it hadn't taken so long. I began in my mid 50's to change what culture I lived in. There has been a lot of turmoil and upheaval from the inside out due to this decision. The decision will lead to pain but it must happen from the inside out. That is because culture always exists and is also created from the inside of us to the outside of us. What ever is on the inside of us determines our behavior. We may want to be a certain way. We may say we are a certain way, but if our belief system contradicts with how we want to be or how we say we are, the belief system always wins out and our behavior is the byproduct. I have seen that my old belief systems made me irrelevant to a culture based on true and unconditional love. From my youth, maybe even birth, I have wanted to live, breath and exude the love of God. I tried to control and change my behavior to fit that love, but since my basic belief system was that God only loved me if I am good, this basic belief system kept me from true change from the inside out. The only way for me to love purely and completely was to realize God always loves me purely and completely, unconditionally. He loves me this way no mater what I do or accomplish, no matter how I behave and no matter what position or title I hold. He doesn't love me like this because I deserve it. He loves me like this, because he deserves it. He loves me because he is the purest of all lovers. For me to be able to love the way he does, I must know him and receive that love completely. The level at which I love, is directly correlated with the level at which I receive his love and know who I am in him. Who I am in him - now there is another thing to ponder. How he sees me is who I really am and in him I become all that I'm meant to be. This is a massive subject on it's own, so we shall continue later.