Thoughts for the Season

Yes, yes, I know, I am so sporadic at blogging. I'm not sure of the reason. I can't decide if I want to blame it on my life or my personality. Oh well, I don't think it really matters. I shall just do what I do.

This is such an exciting season. I love it so much. I love the people that I'm experiencing it with. Most of all, I love my God for leading the way, cheering me on, dragging me though. However each moment should be defined.

God is teaching us about so many things. His emphasis with me is "servanthood", "seeking his face and not his hand", "being righteous and not being concerned about being right".

My life, Jim's and my life, is going though so many changes. My head and heart are spinning. I can't seem to sort it all out yet.

I love you all, my sweet blogging friends. I love knowing your hearts. You are precious in God's sight and mine.

In honor of the Chavez sisters, who I adore, I follow their lead:
Four jobs I have had in my life:
1. Life Guard
2. Hamburger Joint Employee
3. Jr. High Teacher
4. Laboratory Technologies
Movies I watch over and over:
5. Fiddler On The Roof
6. What a Wonderful Life
7. 8.
Four places you have lived:
9. Ft Worth, Texas (1 day old - 18 yrs)
10. Abilene, Texas (18 yrs - present)
11.
12.
Four places you have been on vacation:
13. Knoxville, Tennessee
14. Granite City, Illinois
15. Throughout the state of Colorado
16. British Columbia, Cananda
Four of my favorite foods are:
17. Fried Chicken
18. roasted veggies
19. 100% whole wheat homemade bread
20. steak (different varieties)
Four places I would rather be right now
21. with my Mom
22. at a full service spa
23. at Colorado, in a luxurious cabin with a fire and Jim
24. worshiping with KLF

From freedom, to freedom; From glory to glory

Words cannot express fully the deliverance I have received by the grace and love of my God. Of course all my life I have experienced deliverance, but this deliverance which I speak of is very current. As God has increasingly poured our His presence on our church, as it seems He has on the whole body of Christ, deliverance must come. In His presence our whole being must respond in some way - for or against. His grace is sufficient. Some of the freedom came easy, but there was a wall - a very black wall - a seemingly impenetrable wall - which prevented me from resolution of a root matter. I saw the root in part, and the truth of God seemed to dig pieces of that root out the way you dig into a vegetable with a spoon - slow, deliberately and seemingly very inefficiently. I saw the root in part, but it was fleeting and shadowy and when I could reach for it, it ran through my fingers like water. Only a uncomfortable film was left on my skin which tormented me by it's stinch. But wait, my God is faithful and graceful no matter what or how things appear. While going through the process (in the darkness) I did hear from my God, although faintly. He continued to say "don't give up. I love you, even when you don't see it or feel it or think it". Some of my dear friends unknowingly would agree with Him. The drops of water I received from Him and them saved me from death. Well, I should say what I was delivered of. The lie was rejection. The lie sounded like "You aren't included, and there are many good reasons." It seemed silly. It seemed stupid. It was full of shame. It wasn't true, but it felt as true as any truth I know. But it didn't line up with my God. It lined up with some of the relationships I've had. It lined up with some of the wounds I've received. How thankful I am that the truth, THE reality, is that if something doesn't line up with my God it is NOT TRUE. I pray nothing affects or changes me but the truth. My God is the Way, the Truth, the Life. The truth that set me free was a prophecy which called me out. God had sent many words and prophecies to act as a battering ram to beat against that wall. The last meerly said "You are included. You are in the center, surrounded by a circle of love from the Body of Christ as the inner circle and your God is the outer circle."
HE INCLUDED ME
I am so happy in Christ today
That I go singing along my way
Yes I'm so happy to know and say
Jesus included me too!
vs:
Jesus included me, yes, He included me
When the Lord said "Whosover"
He included me
Jesus included me, yes, He included me
When the Lord said "Whosover"
He included me

Gladly I read, Whosover may
come to the fountain of life today
but when I read it I always say
Jesus included me too!

Ever God's Spirit is saying "Come"
Hear the Bride saying "No longer roam"
But I am sure while they're calling home
Jesus included me too!

Freely come drink
words the soul to thrill
O with what joy they my heart do fill
For when He said "Whosover will"
Jesus included me too!